And yes…they day had ended for most of the working world in this timezone (+7GMT) But not for me. I am here, in what is progressively , i an a downward spiral, becoming the worst day of October 2003. And seing that october just begun, its downhill from here baby.

On the positive side of things, I have recently began sms-flirting with somebody I never imagine would flirt back with me. It started the night before I left for hanoi. I received an sms at 2am in the morning wishing me a good journey. I replied, then she replied my reply and this went on until 4am when I finally fell asleep.

Then yesterday I sent her and sms saying that she had suddently crossed my mind, and she replied and I replied and 15 sms-es later she said she will email me.

Though I doubt a romantic relationship will blossom out of this exchange of bits and bytes on the GSM1800 network thru the Asia Pacific Region, it did put a smile on my face. I am a flirt by nature. I admit it.

ok….I am missing the 100th Episode of Buffy.

And yes…Another crappy day. Mostly cos I am struggling with some Issues about my walk with God. Then there is the additional stuff that happends at work. Sigh.

Will write more when i have the mood

I am begining to hate the Com’s team boss. In what ended up today to me my fault cos there was an old file in the directory. SO the entire 2 days problems are all my fault. And now even though there are other issues he is not helping cos its because its my fault. ARGHHHHHHHH….I am not the project manager. I should not have to deal with him. I can’t take this. I am gonna go back now and order and expensive dinner. watch TV and sleep!!

This sucks!! Day 2 of communication driver issues. My Boss, being the techonlogy pri-madona he is, is inssisting that I did not compile correctly. And with all this, its my fault again. Its amazing how many things are my fault. The coms driver problem, world hunger, cancer…won’t the list ever end?

Anyways…having lunch now…

Donno which is weirder. The Cab that took me to work today was the same cab as yesterday. And We got into yet another accident. Hmm..This time half way in the journey, a motorcylist comming in the other direction, banged the side, then picked up his bike, and continued his journey. The impact was not great, and the CAB driver, wound down his screen, looked, wound it back up, and off we went.

The enviroment in Hanoi is changing, me thinks in preperation for the SEA games. THere are more cops around the streets and they even have this new Portfolio I like to call the “Street Flaggers”. On this busy crossway near Lenin Park (Not Linkin Park), At each crossroad stands 2 youth. Either 2 guys or 2 girls. They are clad in uniform wearing a metal hat and each one of them holds a small red flag. The same size as the ones you get when you go to National Day Celebrations. Anyways, when the traffic light turns red. These two girls will raise thier flags horizontally, and when it turns green, they will continue thier conversations. In the background, behind each pair of street flaggers stands 2 cops in full uniform. So in total there are 16 officers of the law at this One Crossroad every morning. I think the flaggers are either Rookies or part of a Cadet force being trained for the Sea Games, as they look like college students. And the two girls who stand at the road I pass are kinda cute. They have been there for like 7 days now. Hmmmm….Go figure.The enviroment in Hanoi is changing, me thinks in preperation for the SEA games. THere are more cops around the streets and they even have this new Portfolio I like to call the “Street Flaggers”. On this busy crossway near Lenin Park (Not Linkin Park), At each crossroad stands 2 youth. Either 2 guys or 2 girls. They are clad in uniform wearing a metal hat and each one of them holds a small red flag. The same size as the ones you get when you go to National Day Celebrations. Anyways, when the traffic light turns red. These two girls will raise thier flags horizontally, and when it turns green, they will continue thier conversations. In the background, behind each pair of street flaggers stands 2 cops in full uniform. So in total there are 16 officers of the law at this One Crossroad every morning. I think the flaggers are either Rookies or part of a Cadet force being trained for the Sea Games, as they look like college students. And the two girls who stand at the road I pass are kinda cute. They have been there for like 7 days now. Hmmmm….Go figure. The enviroment in Hanoi is changing, me thinks in preperation for the SEA games. THere are more cops around the streets and they even have this new Portfolio I like to call the “Street Flaggers”. On this busy crossway near Lenin Park (Not Linkin Park), At each crossroad stands 2 youth. Either 2 guys or 2 girls. They are clad in uniform wearing a metal hat and each one of them holds a small red flag. The same size as the ones you get when you go to National Day Celebrations. Anyways, when the traffic light turns red. These two girls will raise thier flags horizontally, and when it turns green, they will continue thier conversations. In the background, behind each pair of street flaggers stands 2 cops in full uniform. So in total there are 16 officers of the law at this One Crossroad every morning. I think the flaggers are either Rookies or part of a Cadet force being trained for the Sea Games, as they look like college students. And the two girls who stand at the road I pass are kinda cute. They have been there for like 7 days now. Hmmmm….Go figure.

Had a lousy day yesteday, and with nobody around to scream out my anger too I went home early (7pm). And in my fustration I realized on thing. You don’t always get what you want, but you get what you need. I got this extremely nice Cab driver, who knew my destination because drove me there like 3 times this Trip. He gave me a reciept without even asking for it, and he smiled allot. Then at dinner, the lady who takes my order was nice too. Even tho the Singapore Fried Rice really sucked.Had a lousy day yesteday, and with nobody around to scream out my anger too I went home early (7pm). And in my fustration I realized on thing. You don’t always get what you want, but you get what you need. I got this extremely nice Cab driver, who knew my destination because drove me there like 3 times this Trip. He gave me a reciept without even asking for it, and he smiled allot. Then at dinner, the lady who takes my order was nice too. Even tho the Singapore Fried Rice really sucked. Had a lousy day yesteday, and with nobody around to scream out my anger too I went home early (7pm). And in my fustration I realized on thing. You don’t always get what you want, but you get what you need. I got this extremely nice Cab driver, who knew my destination because drove me there like 3 times this Trip. He gave me a reciept without even asking for it, and he smiled allot. Then at dinner, the lady who takes my order was nice too. Even tho the Singapore Fried Rice really sucked.

Yesterday I read something a good friend of mine wrote “A writter needs to be read”. And So I guess I am just typing out random thots. Hey, after 2 weeks of being here alone with no real conversations with anybody see how saine you are hehehe. Yesterday I read something a good friend of mine wrote “A writter needs to be read”. And So I guess I am just typing out random thots. Hey, after 2 weeks of being here alone with no real conversations with anybody see how saine you are hehehe. Â Â Yesterday I read something a good friend of mine wrote “A writter needs to be read”. And So I guess I am just typing out random thots. Hey, after 2 weeks of being here alone with no real conversations with anybody see how saine you are hehehe.

The weather here is pretty good. Its finally getting slightly cooler than KL. Its like 29 degrees today. Yeah….The weather here is pretty good. Its finally getting slightly cooler than KL. Its like 29 degrees today. Yeah….  The weather here is pretty good. Its finally getting slightly cooler than KL. Its like 29 degrees today. Yeah….

Today I woke up feeling torn apart. This is a weird feeling. In my heart I know that I know that I know God loves me, and this loneliness and solitude is only for a season. But I also have this feeling that maybe its not. That Maybe I am gonna be alone forever. In all the fears that invade this fragile heart of mine, this fear is the greatest. Somedays I feel like, Bring it on! I have been alone for like years now. I can do this forever. And then When I see everybody around me not being alone, I am like…When’s it my turn God. My close friend Elaine told me that its something I have to work out with God. But What is there to work out? I just don’t wanna be alone anymore. And frankly I am. People tell me I have my cell group, I have friends, I have soo many people. And at times that seems true, but at the end of the Day, when Church service or cell is over, When I come home from Work, after I eat dinner alone, I sit at home, go through my phonelist of people to call to hang out with, and I find that My phone is full of numbers of people who can’t, won’t or to busy to spend time with you. When I spend time in worship I don’t feel alone. I feel God’s presence and all, but there Conversations with God is like conversations with myself. Ever feel like you are a fraud? I mean, I know my Jesus is real. And I know he will fufill all my needs. Then why do I fear being alone forever? Isn’t Jesus’s Love enough? Anyways, just thoughts.

Today at lunch time saw my friend Carny online. She is somebody I met in Hong Kong years ago and is now studying in Canada. Were were just taking till we decided to explore the features of MSN. It was quite fun. We tried to use the Voice Feature, but I think that didn’t fully work. Either she couldn’t hear me, or I could not hear her. We finaly had a show and tell session using our webcams. I saw her room, and we did a kinda guessing game. We took turns showing an Item on the cam like our mobile phones, posters, key chains. Was my first Webcam converstion too…Haha..That was soo much fun. Thanks Carny. God bless ya. I will remember u in my prayers…:)

And remember, todays Geography leasson…The capital of Nepal is?