It just makes you more emotional. Depressed even. Maybe its just the amount of time spent alone recently, with hardly anybody to talk to verbally, but things are just getting to me. A friend of mine showed me her online photo album which contained several pictures of her 3 honeymoons, and though I was really happy for her, It just made me extremly depressed. Its not so much that I am not ok being single. I mean, there are worse things in the world than being Single, and I live quite a full life. I do want to get married and have somebody to share my life with. I had a dream that day, that me and my wife were travelling and working together, and my daughter was like asking me so many silly questions, and then the alarm when off. You know sometimes, when you wake up, you can like go back to sleep and continue your dream? I tried and tried, but it just didn’t work. It was over, I was awake, and just in that instance, I really really felt alone in the world. You know once you start to feel bad, suddenly you are tempted to dwell in your sorrows? So there I was, sitting there having a pity party, telling myself I was doomed to live this life forever, alone and listless. Once you start its hard to stop, but stop I did. And Stop I must. For nobody like a crybaby, and its not excatly the most macho of personas. So the Bi-polar personality in me, decided that I would not feel sorry for myself. I started instead to count my blessings, and after a while, I was very happy. I had tons to look forward to. And then the cycle started again, after looking at those honeymoon photos. Its the weather I tell you. The winter just makes everything feel more gloomy then it really is. Its not easy to stay optimistic and cheerfull. It actually gets harder every day, and every year, but I will hold on. This year will be my year, even if its not in the area of Love, it will be my year. I feel it. I claim it.

On this day in History..

• Another Day Another Night - 2004
• A lull in time - 2006
• Another week starts.... - 2007
• The Break Up - 2007
• Help for Johor Flood Victims - 2007
• The Frozen Lock - 2008
• A Scanner Darkly :- A Review - 2008

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