Amazing…
July 9th, 2005 by Nick Tay
There are days where I just feel that the whole world is coming to and end. When I feel that, like has been unfair, that I have been doomed to failure since the day I was born. My childhood left me scared, and hence, I sometimes feel, that I can never be anything of value or worth. I start to wallow in self pity, blaming my parents, my siblings, my friends, everybody even myself for where I am now, and what I have because. I start thinking life is meaningless, and I cry out to God, “Take me home now Lord!, I can’t take it anymore!”. As just as I think of how hopeless my situation is, something happens.
Out of nowhere, I hear a voice. Not a loud booming one, more like a soft prompting. Not so much an audible sound, but rather a gentle whispering to my very soul. A voice that says “Be Still, and Know I am God!”. And suddenly I start to think of all that I have accomplished in my life. Of the storms I have already gone through, and how no matter how the waves rocked my boat, I was never capsized. I always had my anchor firm, and kept the course. Then I start to think of all the pain and suffering in the world, and I realize, that my childhood wasn’t all that bad. I did have a roof over my head, food on the plate, amazing opportunities, that some people would kill for. I realized that my life was speared of many of the harsh realities that so many suffering children have gone through.
Almost immediately, my pity party has ended, and I am filled with a rushing feeling of thankfulness and gratitude. I realized that I have been truly blessed! I also recognize that all I have been through, has made me a stronger man. I have allot of love to share to people, a calling to care for those around me. To show the love I have received. My inward thinking fade so quickly, and I begin to see the need around me.
“Forgive me Lord”, I cry, “For I have taken so much for granted, and forgotten how much I have received. “Teach me oh Lord, to show others your love”.
Boyz II Men
When you’re life’s walk
Can’t see the light of day
And your hope is gone
When you second-guess your faith
When you turn around
And realize that no one else
Will believe in you only yourself
When you’re holding on
Can’t find a will to breathe
Can you right the wrong?
That has brought you to your knees
Though you’ve barely lived your life
You keep on believing you’ll survive
And all that’s left is what’s inside
Amazing
I have heard my inner voice
And finally can rejoice
I was lost and way down
Never thought that I would be
Amazing but now I’m free
So you let go of love that’s holding on
And you close your eyes
Never thought of being wrong
And you surrendered half your life
To a world of pain and sacrifice
But through it all, through it all
You make things right
Amazing
I have heard my inner voice
And finally can rejoice
I was lost and way down
Never thought that I would be
Amazing but now I’m free
Desperate (oh so desperate)
So confined (so confined)
Every day (oh) losing touch (losing touch) of my mind
(Of my mind, oh)
I found that strength
(So I found that strength)
In my pride
(And I’ve gave my pride)
Isn’t it crazy, so amazing
I’m alive
Amazing
I have heard my inner voice
And finally can rejoice
I was lost and way down
Never thought that I would be
Amazing but now I’m free
Amazing
I have heard my inner voice
And finally can rejoice
I was lost and way down
Never thought that I would be
Amazing but now I’m free
So free, amazing that now I’m free
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