Someday’s I feel like I have, that I have matured in my ways, No longer a child. I have the ability to make rational decisions, to weight the pros and cons and to see things in the light of the truth. Today, is not one of those days.

I woke up feeling great, got ready for work. Got into the Cab, and on the ride to work I started to have tears in my eyes. I was thinking of something somebody said to me a while back (actually quite a while back) and I discovered I was still hurting from that. I thought I had forgiven all the parties involve in that confrontation and moved on.

I am funny like that. My mind wonders at the speed of light. One moment I saw this cop taking to a pedestrian, the next I was going through the entire conversation in my mind. What the person said, what I said in response. I know It was just a silly misunderstanding and I did forgive at that point. Why now all this anger?

Have I truly moved on, or just forgotten that event. Is forgiving and forgetting the same? Maybe I am just a child in the way I don’t wanna forgive, it gives me something to get angry about. Perhaps.

Lord Deal With Me!! Me thinks its time to grow up Nick. Grow up!

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
1 Corinthians 13:11-12 (NIV)

On this day in History..

• Nick's Day Off - 2003
• The Meaning Behind Words - 2003
• The End Of An Era - 2003
• Blast from the Past - 2003
• An Evening at the Ballet.. - 2005
• The weekend that was not so happening..... - 2006
• Time is infinite, you cant waste time... - 2006
• JJCM :- Korean Food, Mongolia - 2007
• A Trip to Zaizan - 2007
• A Local Snack - 2007
• London Calling :- Camden Market - 2008
• London Calling :- Nicktay & Sarafoo Together Again - 2008

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